| | My mind been wondering everywhere since I finish the first season of The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya. It has many, many psychology, sociology, mythology, religion, and tons of references that make it such a great anime series. However, it does bring up a good point about my life the more I think about it. Has my life become a life of an ant, who works constantly only to appeal to its queen, not itself? The words I can describe my life only comes from two: dull and gray. Such strong words, yet I do not act upon them as I become even more grayer by the minutes. I feel this world is becoming worst as technology grows, in which human abilities die off, as humans become more dependent on technology to do our deeds. I wish I can alter reality in the blink of an eye as I imagine this world only through thought s of fantasy and science fiction. A child's dream. The dream to obtain magical powers; the dream to find creatures of writer's imagination; the dream to break the laws of physics and fly with swift movements through the air; the dream to meet aliens, espers, and time travelers; the dreams of people who want to escape from reality. Somewhere, anywhere, is a perfect place for me in a dream.
Maybe I'm going insane, but I have my reasons to act strangely. I feel lonely then ever, seeing every college girl having a boyfriend or different agendas than seeing a likeness into me. Homosexuality is not an option for me, nor Bi. I could be a dork for being shy in front of girls. That could be the reason why I never had a girlfriend....or not. I have feelings of wanting to be noticed, cared and loved that hasn't filled the void inside of me. I miss it since I moved from my old neighborhood in Fort Sheridan up here in Antioch. Maybe I should just life with it as I normally do, but may crack my heart in the end if no one cares...
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